If you suffer it is because of you, if you feel blissful it is because of you. Nobody else is responsible - only you and you alone. You are your hell and your heaven too.OSHO (via seedsofwisdom)
There are no more rainbows, now.dontyouwantmeonthefloortoo (via yoursixwordstory)
The world is mine to shape.(via yoursixwordstory)
i’m going to put it here so i can prove myself. i will be sober for the rest of my productive life. only in events which all of my friends, and even then i’m subject to decline, do weed/alc/ex will i consider them. i’ve lived a drugged up life since i was 14 and i’m lucky i’m not in jail, i’m lucky my mind isn’t entirely a jelly donut, and i’m lucky people can still love the mess i am. i’ve worked hard as a performer, and i can be a productive member of society too.
i just know that i don’t want to waste the years i have left. no one can change the past for me, but i have to make the best decisions i can and keep the ones close to me happy. i don’t want to cope anymore, not with drumming, not with drugs, not with eating. it’s been 6 too many years of that.